Savannah

My name is Savannah I am 19 years old. I am born to a loving and caring family. I am often sick as a child, at 11 I am sent to boarding school but I get sick and my grades suffer and I am sent home, here I go to day school. My parents are not in a good relationship. My mum is having an affair with her lecturer in order to get her masters. Dad is no better; he is having affairs with three other women besides mum. My parents are so engrossed in their own lives that they don’t realize they are hurting me. I feel lonely and am still sick.

I am taken back to hospital for check-up. I have persistent cough, the spots on my body are not getting any better. The doctor conducts examinations and then calls my mom into her office. Mum leaves doctor’s office really sad and unable to have an eye contact with me. We go back home in silence and later that night I am summoned to my parents’ bedroom. Both my parents start accusing me of having sex. I tell them I have not had sex with anyone. They ask me if I have ever been raped and I tell them I cannot remember such a thing happening to me. My mum later gives me some medication she calls immune boosters and tells me to take them for a while. In time it is revealed that my parents are HIV positive and so am I.

I am not to blame.